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Hopefully this will all pass. I can't pretend to feel something different. Inside my heart breaks but like the song says, my smile still stays on. I love you more than I love myself, and words can't describe what I want to say, so I choose to not say anything. I opt for distractions and I long for a different situation, but sadly my circumstances are such that I must accept and embrace what goes around me. I walk away because I don't want to talk. If I say what I truly feel, I am afraid that you will think bad of me. I repress my emotions and cry in the silence of my dark room. What I need, is not what I have, so what I want, is definitely out of the question. I explain to you but you fail to understand. But I know that in the end all will pass. And I know that this miserable feeling, that makes me feel like shit because of you is just temporary. I honestly don't know how I feel at the moment, but I just hope with all my heart that tomorrow will be one of the longest days of my life.

Love and Distance, an Eye Opening Opportunity

Sometimes life takes you to far off places and brings you new opportunities, but with this opportunities you must abandon old opportunities even if only for a short period of time. This is really important in our lives, especially in romance life. This time should always be taken as a positive opportunity because somehow it measures the real feelings in the hearts of both persons in the relationship.

When you are far away from the one you love you can learn how to really appreciate this love. Maybe the contrary will happen, and you will learn that in reality you don't love this person. But why does this happen? I believe that when we are immersed in a situation, our perception will be limited to this situation and we may be ignorant of bigger perspectives. When you leave this immersion you can then be able to observe your current situation from a different perspective and take notice of elements that where in your 'blind spot'. Not only this, but when you change your rhythm of life, and also meet new people, you can learn new ways of thinking and apply what you think is right and you evolve in life and grow as a person.

When you grow as a person then you can make your relationship a more mature relationship. Not only maturing relationship, but you can also bring new fresh things to the relationship and this will help keep that love 'spark' on in your romantic life. Also sometimes when we are in a relationship we forget who we are and this distance is good to remind yourself that you are still one person different from your partner, and this is actually good. 

I believe that all in all, taking breaks from your love life is not only healthy, but also important. Because by doing this you can have a reality check in your romance life and you will notice if this person you are with is really important in your life. If you notice this person is necessary in your life then maybe you should reconsider this because people you are with are for complimenting you in your daily life but it is not healthy to be dependent from them. Always make sure that in your love life you are in control of yourself, give each other space to do what you want and also time to be together. 

Remember, you are one plus one, not one times one. I hope that if you travel and are away from your love, you can understand what I am saying and that you learn to appreciate the ones that love you and the ones that you love because only when we miss things is when we understand how important they are for us.