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Hopefully this will all pass. I can't pretend to feel something different. Inside my heart breaks but like the song says, my smile still stays on. I love you more than I love myself, and words can't describe what I want to say, so I choose to not say anything. I opt for distractions and I long for a different situation, but sadly my circumstances are such that I must accept and embrace what goes around me. I walk away because I don't want to talk. If I say what I truly feel, I am afraid that you will think bad of me. I repress my emotions and cry in the silence of my dark room. What I need, is not what I have, so what I want, is definitely out of the question. I explain to you but you fail to understand. But I know that in the end all will pass. And I know that this miserable feeling, that makes me feel like shit because of you is just temporary. I honestly don't know how I feel at the moment, but I just hope with all my heart that tomorrow will be one of the longest days of my life.